I am already a bride

 

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Ever since I graduated from college last May, I have been asked a handful of pressing questions. My least favorite one is: “So, are you seeing anyone yet?”

While I do not loathe that question,  I would be lying if I said that it did not make me feel uneasy. I am not in a relationship right now, and to be honest, I am okay with that. Do I feel like this all the time, no,in fact, I’ve struggled with this a lot and I have had some unhealthy ways of coping with it. While I have witnessed many friends walk down the aisle and rejoiced in the new season God has blessed them with, I do often wonder when will it be my turn.

I can spend many nights on Pinterest, pinning every detail, down to the verse I want read at my wedding, but a crucial part is missing; the groom, or so I thought.

Whenever people would talk about the “Bride of Christ” I would get angry. I thought that if I was God’s bride, then I would never get married and that he would want me all to himself, but this fact is true. Yes, we serve a jealous God and no other God’s must come before him( Ex 20:3). That includes the desire for marriage and a man. It also came from a deep rooted issues of trust and loneliness.

I came to realize I had this high-minded idea of a wedding day and being called a bride. As if that day will fulfill all of my heart’s desires and changing my last name will give me significance in this world.

Oh, the false lies of this world that I have believed.

For your Maker is your husband—  the Lord Almighty is his name—the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth: Isaiah 54:5

I am already a bride!

Changing my last name will not give me a new sense of confidence nor will it make me a new person. My newness comes from my life found in the risen lamb, Jesus. In regards to my loneliness, I often forget how Jesus gave us the Holy Spirit to comfort, correct, and direct us.

And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever—the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to yo: John 14:16-18

I am never alone, and it will be constant prayer of mine to remember that I have the Holy Spirit, regardless of my season of singleness or marriage.

While I do have a desire to marry, I earnestly pray that I use this season of singleness to serve, live my life and love others. The bonds between believers in the church are strong thanks to the Holy Spirit; therefore, all the more I will rejoice in contentment in being the bride to the most faithful bridegroom.

 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all: Ephesians 4:4-6
Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it: Ephesians 5: 25

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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